man.. i'm feeling sad, angry and happy. very mixed up as you can see.
i've been talking to my longtime bff bout the problems we shared and thankfully we're alwaes there for each other. i feel sad some days and i feel angry at some.. but all of that were gone whenever i meet a fren of mine wen we bump into each other outside class.. that person alwaes makes me smile..haha...sighs.. i just feel lyk leaving this country if daddy have the chance to go abroad...i don't care whether i'm leaving behind some of my frens..i noe i would be leaving my long time bff but deep down inside, she'll alwaes be in my heart as i would be in hers..
damn it i'm getting all mushy and i hate it...
well currently my piggybank is growing by leaps and bounds and hari raya is coming up soon..wow so fast..

i'm feeling angry becos of you... i'm feeling sad becos of you...
why are you so oblivious to me?! isn't my actions damn obvious?! i'm alwaes quiet and you never bother to ask me why..
you take it as if it's ok..lyk everything's fine and behave normally as if you're not in the wrong..
but believe me this is over..even if you might have not known it and behave like some selfish human being...
the relationship we manage to form and bond over the 2 years is over..we're just normal now..not too close not too distant..
i'll talk when i nid to...and laugh wen i have to...nag you if i even bothered..heck you don't even care..it's just you and you..

Deja Vu..nice way to put it..we've been through this last year and now..it's seriously has affected me more than last year's..
don't tell me i'm just being stupid or childish or that you have to divide your time amongst those around you..
it's just that you don't spend your time dividing fairly..
that's it..it's over..i'm out of that relationship i hope so hard to survive..

it's just me and my longtime bff now..
i'm sorrie.. even if you change...i doubt i'll still be the same towards you...

It's Amazing To See Two Strangers Become Friends But Very Disappointing to See Two Friends Becoming Strangers