it's been quite awhile since i last updated...
i'm feeling really disappointed and heartbroken for a friend of mine who i just got to know of this year...
i pity him man..really.. i really do...i'm glad that he finally know the truth and although he's heartbroken...at least he is not kept in the dark....
sometimes i wanna know how and why people are doing this kind of degrading stuffs?
covering up a story by using such a nice person who is now probably ashamed & heartbroken after believing in a lie that he really hoped to be real..
sometimes i ask myself...do i really just wanna turn a deaf ear on this???
i would always find my instincts telling me to speak up for wad's right...
i noe my methods of making him realize exactly wad was going on was harsh and mean...
but i couldn't bear to let him be in the dark and hoping and dreaming on a false story...

i really really badly wanna believe that all this is a bad dream that i'd soon wake up from...
too bad it isn't...i guess the heart does have its agendas huh?
affairs of the heart...it can make people go through lengths just to cover up for the ones they love
i couldn't bear to look you in the eyes anymore...
how many stories have you created already?? how many more people are you gonna hurt??
even though this does not directly involves me...
i still feel the pain that he is going through...

i noe you feel really happy rite now...
but is your happiness worth it now that you've lost 2 friends?
you may be asking why 2?
even though you've only hurt one person's heart...you've manage to slash mine too..
i'm wondering if you did sae sorry to him & whether that sorry has a meaning to it...
god..why must you do this?? he genuinely feels for you..
don't you remember those times wen you spend together texting..chatting..& just hanging out??
you're willing to sacrifice those beautiful moments with a lie...

now i'm wondering if you're time with me was a lie...
well now you're finally getting wad you've wanted...to be with the one you're dreaming to be with
& congratulations you've managed to change my mind bout you....